Update

My depression’s hit so bad this time I haven’t even kept up to date with my blogging:

I got my first letter from Ben and it was the most romantic thing every.  I have never gotten a lot letter before… he even wrote me a song.

He called again and I confided in him how hard it is for me because my parents are so negative about the fact that my sig. other is in carcerated and that’s depressing and stressing me out.  He was kind, but there’s really not much he could have said.

He needs around $30-$35 into his canteen so he can buy some personal hygiene items.  I don’t see to have the balls to tell him that I simply don’t have that money right now.  It’s already getting hard to pay for the collect calls to be able to hear his voice on a regular basis.

I got the Visiting Time wrong... It's in the PM instead of AM

Which means instead of waking up outrageously early and seeing my man the first thing in the morning, I have to be at school in a class.

It also means that unless the class is randomly canceled, the next time I can see him is April 22! That's four weeks from tomorrow! A whole month! Urgg...

I almost started crying after his phone call tonight because he just wanted me to tell him about my day and that he's 'ready to pull his hair out'. Also since I won't be able to visit him for a month, it means more collect phone calls, that well, I don't really have the money for.

I wish that there was more I could do than send him mail, buy him books from Barns'n'Noble, and see him for 45 minutes when possible. The only plus side of him eventually heading to prison is that I will at least be able to send him 'care packages', with pretty stationary and stamps.

Right now, if I would deposit money into his account, not 50% like it says on the website - but 100%, he would not have the use of the money. Apparently he's too 'in debt' with the prison due to his cancer treatment that the prison feels they can take all his funds. So I can't even deposit money so he can buy snacks and junk food! If I were in a situation like that I would really look forward to buying a different kind of chips or candy bars each day, I would delight in that.

Right now I pray, and try to find money to pay for lots of stamps, collect phone calls, and to buy him a book once or twice a month.

BTW: Even notice that the vast majority of the Bargain Books at Barns'n'Noble are hardcover and therefore cannot be sent to the Jail? Also, that most calendars, puzzle books and journals all have a spiral binding and therefore cannot be sent to the Jail.

Surprises

Oh the joys and sorrows of FASA and College tuition.  Mostly they are sorrows – like how I found out the on the Thursday before the Monday when I was supposed to receive the refund, the school sent me a letter saying that I owed them $250 dollars before I would receive my FAFA refund.

But then are they occasional joys, and I must admit the joys are very much occasional, when you unexpectedly receive a refund.

Here’s how it went down. I logged into my Credit Union account as I do a couple times a week because I’m terrible at managing my checking account; and low and behold! My Checking had over $500 dollars more than I thought there’d be! I clinked into the account and saw that my School’s PDDCheck sent me a $530 refund.

Wow.  I am feeling so very blessed!  Plus my night class got canceled because of the snow (even though there are only 4-6’’ out there which really isn’t much for WI), so I got to take a much needed nap this afternoon instead of doing homework, and then I’m suddenly over half a thousand dollars richer!  Sweet.